hello.... I am happy to say I have Internet!! Yes in hospital!! Goodness why I did not get it before now I will never know! It's kept me well and truely distracted... Dad gave me some headphones too so I can watch Netflix!! I am hooked on a new Netflix series called Returned...
Oooh look at me chirping on!! Well yes I am feeling so so much better...the nasty bug has gone and now I am trying to recover and gain energy. I never ate and hardly drank anything for 8 days... Awful..ha ha on another note I have lost 10 kg!! Ha ha a not the way at all to do it I know but funny I think!!
I was all set to show you a lovely (not) photo of me... Oh you know looking worn out, dark eyes as I am not sleeping much and OMG! My hair! It's awful! Ha ha but for some reason I could not upload it! Never mind!
Yes here in England it's now bank holiday Monday and yet another day without doctors on the ward... This started Friday.. Rather silly but the hospitals here just stop at weekends. I have to wait until tomorrow to see a doctor unless it's deemed an emergency naturally! Fingers crossed but I am pushing to be discharged next week. See my bug has cleared up and I am now eating and drinking fine.. I feel ok too. My knee...hmmm the knee that has caused oh so many problems... It's a little better. I can hobble limp kind of thing now. I stopped all the pain medications..well I took them all for 3 months and I still could not walk and was still in pain. Now I am learning to work with the pain I have.. To learn to understand my limits. My left leg still will not straighten, I hope it does soon? I hope I walk properly again... The hospital have said they will not do anything for my knee.... As its osteoarthritis and I have to live with it..ha ha until I can't then maybe they will look at it! See as I am now taking anti-clotting medication for the rest of my life ..... Yes the multiple clots on my lungs were there because I could not walk! Any way... So because of that medication they are reluctant to inject steroids or I forget the other thing... It's dangerous as it may cause a bleed in my knee...hmmm which would be erm....very painful and cause complications. So it's wise I do not have them...and they will not change my knee as I am too young.... Yes 43 is too young! See a new knee would only last around 10 years! And it's a major operation... I cannot have an surgery for 6-12 months due to scarring on my lungs from the blood clots!
So you see all I can to is try to be more mobile... We do have a tredmill at home, so I plan to start walking, yes gently on there to build the strength up in my leg. Nothing more they can do!! Up to me now!! I CAN DO THIS!! I mean I want to get back to walking... I know it's going to be tough, I have to stay strong, I need my independence and life back!
Ha ha and omg!! I will be able to wear clothes for the first time this year!! Shoes!! Omg!! After living in PJ's for so long now it will feel strange I bet! First step to normality! Ha ha jon says I will need to sort all my clothes out as what with losing weight some may not fit me!!
Stitching... No I have been doing no stitching.. I don't have the patience whilst being in here... I am getting really agitated over little things. I think it's because I think I should not be here.
OH YES!! Freedom for a little while.... My dad is popping up as he has to go to the shops..and as its bank holiday nothing much happening he thought he would bring a wheelchair from the hospital entrance to take me for a coffee!! Yes I have had my family visit me... I am ever so grateful they did come. Life in hospital is slow and really boring :(. I worked it out last night ....all in all up to tomorrow this year I have been in and out of hospital but it all adds up to 52 days!! WOW!! I tell you when I get discharged I am NOT coming back again!!
I want to thank you all for sticking with me.... This year has not been the best start... But I hope once I am home next week (fingers crossed) I will get stronger and things will get better and back to normal. Stitching will resume when I get home as I really miss doing it... And oh I cannot wait to catch up with everyone...see what you have all been up to :)
Ok goimg now...huge happy smiles you all :) xx